This weekend was tough.

My husband decided to stay out all night on Friday night and not call or text me. I am furious. I am not a roommate. I am his wife and five months ago, there would have been affectionate texts and promises of missing me if he stayed away.

He apologised for not telling me and said he would tell me in the future. Hence the text that arrived late on Saturday night/ early Sunday morning, informing me that he was staying out a second night.

When I finally saw him last night, he was cold. This morning, he was even colder. I want him to go. I want him out of my life. To see someone that you love so much, barely acknowledge you hurts. It would be better if I never saw him.

Five months ago, he would hug me while I was doing dishes. Today, he just ignores I am in the same room.

I hate him. No, I love him and I want him to love me again.