I am so lonely. I am really really lonely.
I cannot shake it. It is hard at night. I cry in bed. I try to get up in the morning and feel positive but I just feel alone.

I had a horrible dream last night that D was dating someone else. Everyone knew and no one wanted to tell me. It seemed so real that I woke up crying. I hate this feeling. I hate it.

I was so happy and now I am so low.