I cannot stop crying. I just cry and cry.
I am so upset. I don't know what to do. D has told me that he wants me back and wants to change so that we can make it work.

So, he put the question back into my court. I don't know. I really don't. I am miserable without him, but given he has dumped me twice already it doesn't fill me with confidence that he won't do it again.

I guess maybe ask him for some space so I don't think about "us" all the time.