Just cannot take it anymore - seriously cracking up

Well, the situation is getting worse. I don't think I can keep it together much longer. There are cracks that are showing at work, in my personal life.

I am tired of the whole mess. I am tired just being me.

I am so fed up with my husband's mood swings. This morning, I started making breakfast while he showered and changed. He comes into the kitchen dressed and I asked him to finish cooking his eggs while I eat. (I still need to shower and get dressed) He apparently was angered by this because he thought that I was making both of us breakfast. So, he comes to the table with eggs on a plate - no fork - nothing but eggs. I mention, "is that all you are having?" His answer is "apparently" and leaves the room. Would anyone else agree that this would be childish at the least and emotional abuse at the most?

This afternoon, he asks me to review some documents he got from a lawyer and give feedback via email. I didn't have anything original and simply re-iterated all of the info I felt was important. He never answered my email and when I spoke to him on the phone, he didn't mention it.

So, I brought it up and he said, "you didn't offern me anything new so I didn't feel there was any point". I challenged this and explained that if you ask me to spend time doing something and then you don't even acknowledge the work, after a while, it begans to send the message that you don't value my contribution. He just said, "oh, okay".

I am sick of all of this. ALL of it. I am not rubbish. I want someone to appreciate me.

Post V-Day
Yes, well, it had been a while since I posted anything about my dysfunctional relationship with my husband. To be honest, most of it had been similar activities, so there was a lot repetition. But being Valentine's Day, he decided to really do something special.

V-Day morning. I am sitting on the couch sipping coffee and watching the BBC News. He sits down next to me and says, "Do you have a Valentine?" I respond, "No". Note: There was not much tone. Simply answered as if it was an ordinary question.

He then leans over and kisses my cheek. I turn to him and say quizzically, "Does that mean that you are my Valentine?"

He responds, "Who me? That wasn't me. Someone just ran in the room, kissed you and ran out."

Great. I am married to a 12-year-old.

And that was pretty much the highlight of the V-Day celebrations. While I think it is a terrible, made up, and overly commercialised non-holiday, you cannot help feeling a bit crap when that is the extent of what you get from your husband.

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Coretta Scott King lies in state.

Thousands of friends, family and admirers are due to attend the funeral of Coretta Scott King, widow of US civil rights leader Martin Luther King.
President George W Bush will take part in the service, alongside ex-Presidents Bill Clinton and Jimmy Carter. In the past few days, tens of thousands of people in the state of Georgia have filed past Mrs King's open casket.

Mrs King died aged 78. She is the first African-American and the first woman to lie in honour in the state Capitol.

Tributes

Tuesday's funeral is to be held in Atlanta, at the New Birth Missionary Church where her daughter, Bernice, is a minister.

Flags are being flown at half-mast at all US government buildings, military posts and diplomatic missions abroad. Mrs King - who died on 30 January - had carried on her husband's work for racial equality after he was assassinated in 1968. "She leaves us all a better America than the America of her childhood," TV personality Oprah Winfrey said on Monday. Others who paid their respects to Martin Luther King's widow included the civil rights leaders Jesse Jackson and Al Sharpton.

Coretta Scott King worked to secure her husband's legacy.

Waiting outside the Ebenezer Baptist Church where her casket was lying in honour on Monday, Navy sailor Dwight MacMutay said: "She was a great woman. We pray that we have someone to fill her shoes." He was one of the estimated 100,000 mourners to brave the rain to pay their last respects on Monday. Thousands more had already filed past her open casket in the state Capitol building over the weekend.

Legacy

Mrs King died in her sleep, after experiencing poor health in recent years.
She met her husband in Boston, married him in 1953, and supported him in his civil rights work. After his death, she raised their children while working to secure his legacy. In 1969 she founded the Martin Luther King Jr Centre for Non-violent Social Change in Atlanta.
She saw the establishment of a national holiday to mark her husband's January birthday, from 1986.