Well, it has been a while since I have written and I am not sure what to write entirely. I guess I thought a good ramble in a virtual environment would do me good.

So, I am lonely. Yup, there it is. I have a decent job, good friends and a safe place to sleep. What more could you want? Oh, a partner? Well, yes, I would like one of those as well.

I am 35 and I am a woman. A modern woman with modern woman problems which means, I have too much choice, a good career and absolutely no boyfriend. And although I am trying to stay positive, as more and more of my friends happily tell me of their pregnancies I just start to feel darker and darker about my own possibilities.

I have always wanted kids. I just have. I think if I had been desperate for it, I would have gotten pregnant at 22, but I wanted the right environment. I wanted a partner, a career, a stable environment to do it in. Well, now I have the job, but not the partner and frankly it bums me out!!

I desperately want a partner and I want one fast so I can have kids. The desperation when I meet men must smell rank! (But, what can I do?) I meet someone and I think if I was ten years younger, I would just roll on dating men without caring but sadly, my father keeps sending me newspaper clippings about my eggs drying which does not help.

Oh well. It will happen, or not.